I had lunch with a dear friend the other day. I shared with her about the shift that continues in my life, my healing journey, and the changes right before my eyes. I also shared with her my disappointments and hurt. I said some know my story, my history, my abandonment, my narcissist relationships, and my trauma. I said I expected those “friends” to be happy for me that I have evolved and moved forward in healing with my stuff. I thought they’d be the first ones to support me with my project but what I have learned is those “friends” have not supported me at all. They haven’t congratulated me on my awakening and my healing journey. I continued detailing my disappointment and grief, then my very wise friend said, “they’re not gonna be there for you.” “They want you to be in the same place, right there where you used to be.” She explained how she went through a similar situation when she had a shift, major changes in her life. She told me that her friends didn’t believe in her journey, her business and didn’t congratulate her on her progress. It was hurtful but she kept her eye on the prize and that was bettering the quality of her life. She reminded me that it’s always lonely at the top.
It’s difficult for me but I’m accepting it because every time it hits my brain that one has disappeared, I hear that small voice that says “yes but I sent this one and that one and those are the replacements that are gonna support you and love you like you need to be supported and loved.” Then I remembered Job 42:10 and Deuteronomy 30:3 that says God will give you back better than what you lost. God will never leave you empty. He will replace everything you lost. And that I know it’s true! I’ve never lost anything that hasn’t been replaced with better.
If you find yourself on a similar journey. Maybe you feel like people are missing from your life or doors have closed. Please know you’re not alone. People are for a reason and some for a season. Accept it and look forward with the replacements. God has a plan, already has our steps ordered. He knows conversations we don’t hear. He knows everything. We just have to trust that he will replace with better and more. Healing is messy! Some days you’re up, some days you’re down, some days you’re just trying to survive. And those support beams under you, your tribe, cannot be weak. They gotta be strong and flexible. Hug your tribe tight and thank God for replacements. ❤️