The Battle Is Not Yours

I was supposed to have a small outpatient surgery this coming Wednesday in Nashville. Last Monday I started getting roadblocks, not speed bumps to prevent me from having it. I was initially upset, frustrated and I still don’t understand why it’s not working out but I’m accepting it. The old me would’ve tried to beat a square peg into a round hole until I fell out but the new me just accepted that there’s a reason, God knows and he’s in control. I’m believing it and saying “thank ya Jesus” because who knows what situation it saved me from facing. Maybe there’s something better, maybe I won’t need it at all. I trust that it is a door closed for a reason. I say it so often to me and others, faith, and fear cannot exist simultaneously. I’ve lived in fear long enough. I was raised in a fear-based doctrine church, in a fear base home, and surrounded myself with worrywarts and people of little faith. As my mother would say “birds of a feather flock together”. None of it worked in my favor. I’m happy to say that I’ve changed my way of thinking, my tribe, my faith, and my trust in God. Let me also say, it did not happen overnight, it took decades, it took a lot of pain and grief to bring me to my knees of surrendering to him. But believe me, God can show you he’s in control. Don’t doubt it and don’t dare him because it can happen. I don’t know who this is for today but let go of worry, fear, and doubt, it will deliver you. It’s so much easier when you let go and let God. Prayers for all struggling with battles!