People with overanalyzing brains, like myself, tend to ask the infamous question “How?” a lot. “How” is a word that diminishes hope and dilutes faith. It is ultimately saying if I can’t see the details of the result, I don’t accept it.
In my early years of therapy, my shrink would often suggest solutions and ideas that were too big for me to comprehend much less believe. My question became a standing question “How?” Her response was always the same “The hows are not for us to know.” The hows are worked out when you first believe that it’s possible. Even if it’s never happened before, even if it sounds crazy. Those things are called blessings and miracles.
Jesus told Peter to go back out to sea and cast his nets, not a net but nets. He’d been out all day fishing with one net and hadn’t caught anything so how would it be possible to cast nets and catch fish when one net had not caught nothing. Initially Peter did not have faith and believe because he could not comprehend how.
But Peter trusted and believed in Jesus. Believing and trusting that it will happen is the key to it happening. I think about the trust and belief a gambler has in the system. They never ask “how” they just keep playing, trusting and believing that it’s going to happen. If we could just apply that same mentality to our daily lives.
I encourage you to find new confidence. Surround yourself with great supporters who speak words of life over you. Meditate on hopes and dreams. Embrace the visions that you see for yourself. Pray, trust, believe, and then repeat. And stop asking “how” because the “hows” are not up to you.