The Process of Awakening

This quote by Eckhart Tolle is perfect! It perfectly describes my awakening. It’s what I have blogged about for almost a year. The suffering we endure is not in vain. It has a purpose if we can only believe that through our suffering.

I’ve had 2 very intimate and up-close conversations lately with a couple of friends. One of them had a very similar awakening as me. She endured a lot of pain from losing a child and a parent within 90 days apart. I wept as she told me her story. I could not fathom the pain that she endured during her suffering. As she was telling her story, I was thinking “how is she here?” Her energy did not send vibes of grief, anger, hurt, or disappointment. Although she confirmed she’d had all of those emotions but moved passed them through her awakening. She surrendered everything due to her suffering.

I have another friend that is currently suffering through losing a soul that is living. I believe the loss of the living is equally as bad if not worse than losing the souls that leave this world. When we lose a living soul it’s so much more difficult because they are still here. We want to believe in hope and change for them. We pray for breakthroughs and awakenings for them. But as we know, only one can decide to change. Nobody ever changes without surrendering.

And that brings me to my next point. The awakening from suffering is in the surrendering. Confessions with your mouth mean nothing if your spirit and soul do not align with your words. Let me break that down for you. When you get so sick and so tired of your pain, and suffering that you will do anything, that is the surrendering part.

As I shared with my friend, when you pray to die because you don’t want to wake up to another day of pain, and every fiber in you wants that, that’s surrendering all. When you say, I’ll eat out of a dumpster, work 5 jobs and do anything for freedom from my abusive situation and every fiber in you is willing to do that, that’s surrendering. Surrendering to spirituality and religion means that a believer completely gives up his own will and subjects his thoughts, ideas, and deeds to the will and teachings of a higher power.

But…be careful what you pray for! When you surrender to God and pray that you will do anything for the pain to be extinguished. One must be prepared. Because after the surrendering comes the challenging part of the new journey and that my friend is a road not paved with gold and green grass. Because now you’ve surrendered, you’ve committed and made a deal with God that IF he will just take the pain away, you will do anything. Anything means anything! Not what you wish or want but what your purpose is moving forward. It’s like the game show “Let’s Make a Deal” except you are making a deal with God and you don’t know what is behind doors 1,2, or 3.

Know this friends, each of those doors will always be a better place than where you have been. It will be challenging and there will be many teachings behind those doors but the peace, freedom, and new life you receive cannot be described with words or drawn with images. It’s a lightbulb that cannot be dimmed.

I don’t know who this is for but I know that as you are reading it, you are understanding it. You are believing it and embracing it. You trust my words because you know there is more to life than what you have experienced. Prayers for strength and peace to you and all.

Published by Dana

Creative writer about my life and life lessons. Survivor of abandonment, addiction, narcissist relationships, and trauma. Still dealing while I'm healing. Thank you Jesus!

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