There is a voice inside of an abandoned child that cannot speak as an adult. The voice that can’t speak because they fear they may be abandoned, not loved, or betrayed. It’s a learned pattern that grows with the child. As an adult, the abandonment wound still exists and the adult cannot say what they really feel or think to those they love or have an emotional attachment. They feel there is no safe space.
I’ve spent years not saying things I wanted to say due to fear of abandonment and fear of not being loved. I’ve learned on my journey that it’s part of my healing to say and allow it to flow without fear of abandonment or someone not loving me. The voice that I’ve muted for so long now is on volume 10 with no fear in my tone, no tears in my eyes, or butterflies in my stomach. I have found my voice of truth and it shatters all my doubts.
Thank you Jesus for the breakthrough and new strength I’ve found within me. I feel like a bird out of a cage. I know that some I speak to will walk away because they are no longer are benefiting from my brokenness but more respect every word that I speak in bold truth. And now I know, I know I’m on the path of healing, recovery, and breaking patterns that no longer hold me hostage.