You may have noticed some changes in my blogging and my social media presence this year. You may have also noticed that I’m more on the healing side than the dealing side. Since my media detox in January, my life has changed again. I’m not able to put into words exactly what happened during those 31 days I was shut down but my life has never felt more peaceful. I think I found new love with the quiet and the stillness I experienced. I believe I experienced a new level of awakening and spiritual awareness.
I can count on one hand the times I have watched the news since I came back on to television and social media. I have watched a couple of Netflix series but other than that I’m still sitting in the quiet with music sometimes playing in the background. I’m committed to a full schedule of writing my blog, a memoir, working out, and currently reading two books while intermittently working on podcasts, sermons, and motivational videos. If that is not enough I work a full-time job and I started a personal project that I will share with you later. You may now understand why I don’t have the social media presence I had previously. I have time restraints because I am on a mission.
I feel whole, complete and I don’t need anyone or anything to make me feel better. I’m no longer chasing counterfeit freedom in material things, alcohol, or experiences. I’m moving away from labels and working on my ego. I have authentic freedom and that is why I’m happier than I have ever been in my life. I know I’m continuing to awaken as I see signs and synchronicities daily. I know that God lives in me and is working through me. I’m not able to explain the intelligence behind it all but I know that it is real because of my experiences.
The book I’m writing, it’s a story of a girl born to a dysfunctional family, who emotionally and physically abandoned her. That girl grew up with an abandonment wound and an unhealthy attachment style that created a magnet for addicts and narcissists’ relationships. After 5 decades she broke patterns and generational curses. She prayed to die many times during her dark periods but she didn’t because she has a purpose and a story to tell to the world. She knows that no suffering is in vain and nobody is born to give up because everyone has a gift and a purpose. It’s there and it’s been there the entire time. Believe me, because that girl is me!