Triggers from Trauma ~ Part 2

If you haven’t read part 1, please read it first in order to better understand part 2.

As you know, my internet went out 5 times during my media detox. And you know I lost my cool on Sunday when I woke up with zero wifi. Today, Comcast sends a Senior Specialist out to find the issue and to repair it hopefully for good. The man was prompt, courteous, professional, and seemed to know what he was doing. Okay, so far, so good. He had on a mask that had a cross on it. I didn’t think much about it. Just noticed it. As he ran multiple tests for 2 hours, we talked about general topics which lead to our common ground, we were both raised in the same denomination. As we both openly discussed our views on religion and church, I began to tell my story on my awakening and about the birth of Dealing to Healing. I fought tears due to so much emotion as I was talking to him, he became almost childlike to me. He listened intently and shared more of his story with me. After I apologized for being so long-winded and saying, “I don’t know why I’m telling you this.” This nice guy thanked me for sharing my story. It was as if he was sent to hear it from me.

I don’t know all of his story and I don’t know what impact my story had on him but I know he listened intently, engaged in the conversation and thanked me for sharing it. What do I believe? I believe that it took my internet going out 5 times for our paths to cross. I believe he needed to hear my story. As I told 2 of the tribe members the story, I said “if God himself would’ve said your internet is going out 5 times so you can get this man to come to you and hear your story, I may not have had such a meltdown on Sunday.” It’s weighed heavily on my mind all day. I believe there is always an orchestra playing in the background, behind the curtain. I believe there’s an orchestra conductor that is putting everything into works 24/7. It is up to us to show up, play the notes and know our part.

I’m happy I got to play my part today. I’ve had to apologize to God for losing my cool and letting it consume me. I know now there were 2 lessons to learn. One I learned that incompetency is a trigger for my trauma. Two that everything happens for a reason and we don’t always know the reason. Paths do cross and what else…Connections Are Not Coincidental!

Oh and my internet is fixed with a new and updated modem! Thank ya Jesus!